So I went to this site http://www.languageisavirus.com which has some interesting word game type things.
Anyway, I ended up at an Anais Nin Magnetic Poetry section: http://www.languageisavirus.com/magneticpoetry/anais.html
What I did, for some reason, was to take each of these magnets and arrange them without actually reading them. Basically I put them into an order randomly. Sure, sometimes after I moved things I got interesting combinations and "read" them. But that didn't stop me from moving whatever ones I got around until they all were relatively the same length "sentences".
Anyway, I was hoping to get some "stream of consciousness" type thing going on and hoping to see something interesting form from my unconscious.
So here is what I found (and yes, some are interesting while others are gibberish):
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01 wholeness love sheltered flute wrapped unfathomable innocuous
02 pattern penetrate truth thoughts illumination distrust acute swim
03 futility stainedglass falling lyric essences trembling sensuality
04 voracious witchcraft introspection layers experience dissolve
05 darkness insanity float movement shackles dreamer breath tongue
06 thirst disappear enmeshed moons deeper secret dizziness murmur
07 wonderful tragic clever invent lose temporal absolution stranger
08 exaltations electric clear caresses exhilaration tempo flowers
09 weep music leaf bathed disturbance curtain piano costuming
10 clock solitude smoke opiumden inflection silences sufferings
11 water pure rushing sparks clearness banal discovery moods
12 keenest womb movement nimble imagines fecund thinker
13 fairytales stagnation convincingly surface sense measures
14 paintings ecstasy climax transparent neurotic reborn savage
15 proportions veiled whirling mirror rust darker vehement joy
16 distressed regions alive fantasy fertility narcissist inexorable
17 ivory hallucinations merging flesh jewels clarity costumes
18 hunger insuperable nuance ideas labyrinth overflow intoxication
19 deceptive renewal hysteria confusion surprises hibernating
20 sunk fatigue remembering nourishes lies blinding bottomless
21 delicate thread restlessness emptied dangerous doubt
22 rusty arouses full sourly immense quivers hues polish
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I would be interested in anyone's thoughts on any of these lines.
Perhaps I will expand on some of my own thoughts on some of them. :)
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
The most alien thing is sentience itself
I was reading this: http://www.techgnosis.com/lovecraft.html
Which you can also find (if the link doesn't work) in the Google cache.
Anyway, I found a line in it that struck a chord in me:
"The most alien thing is sentience itself."
Here was my immediate response to it:
In all of the universe the most unique and wistful idea is that the universe can think of itself in a multitude of ways, yet so limited that comprehension is impossible individually. It is the collective of this sentience that allows the universe to think of itself and to know itself and to question itself. And because of this sentience, it knows that it is nothing without each of its partial sentients, but also it knows that it will disregard any conclusions or thoughts of these sentients because they do not and cannot know the whole. Therefore, it is this collection that will continue until its individual sentients decide to get rid of all the other pieces in their ignorance.
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What that means I am not exactly sure, but it is dark even to me in the sense that this uniqueness of individual is all well and good but is immaterial alone and of itself. The need to feel that we are of consequence is selfish to the extreme but, not knowing any better or not in fact being able to know better, we continue on as if it really mattered.
The important thing is that we do continue for the betterment of all things with the added benefit of self-preservation.
Go me! :)
P.S. Can you tell I am in a sort of Lovecraftian mood? :)
Which you can also find (if the link doesn't work) in the Google cache.
Anyway, I found a line in it that struck a chord in me:
"The most alien thing is sentience itself."
Here was my immediate response to it:
In all of the universe the most unique and wistful idea is that the universe can think of itself in a multitude of ways, yet so limited that comprehension is impossible individually. It is the collective of this sentience that allows the universe to think of itself and to know itself and to question itself. And because of this sentience, it knows that it is nothing without each of its partial sentients, but also it knows that it will disregard any conclusions or thoughts of these sentients because they do not and cannot know the whole. Therefore, it is this collection that will continue until its individual sentients decide to get rid of all the other pieces in their ignorance.
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What that means I am not exactly sure, but it is dark even to me in the sense that this uniqueness of individual is all well and good but is immaterial alone and of itself. The need to feel that we are of consequence is selfish to the extreme but, not knowing any better or not in fact being able to know better, we continue on as if it really mattered.
The important thing is that we do continue for the betterment of all things with the added benefit of self-preservation.
Go me! :)
P.S. Can you tell I am in a sort of Lovecraftian mood? :)
Monday, November 21, 2005
Thoughts Of You
Thoughts Of You
Every time I think back
To all the days that have gone before
I can't quite recall
What it was that brought you to me
Was it a kind word
A knowing wink
Or a wistful touch?
And every time that I look back
I forget myself and think only
Of the times we have made together
Since we began our journey
With a breathless kiss
A knowing touch
And tender thoughts.
Why do I reminisce you may ask?
Perhaps it is the distance
Or it is this cold bedding
Knowing that you are near
In my heart
And in my mind
And my soul.
Yet you are far away
And I am yearning again
With thoughts of you.
Every time I think back
To all the days that have gone before
I can't quite recall
What it was that brought you to me
Was it a kind word
A knowing wink
Or a wistful touch?
And every time that I look back
I forget myself and think only
Of the times we have made together
Since we began our journey
With a breathless kiss
A knowing touch
And tender thoughts.
Why do I reminisce you may ask?
Perhaps it is the distance
Or it is this cold bedding
Knowing that you are near
In my heart
And in my mind
And my soul.
Yet you are far away
And I am yearning again
With thoughts of you.
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Squeeze Play
So I was reading this article: http://www.nomorefakenews.com/archives/archiveview.php?key=2881 and it makes a lot of good points.
The sad thing is, everyone already knows that.
And we are not at a point right now where people are distressed or angry enough to do anything about it.
There will be another Squeeze Play in the near future.
What needs to happen is to break the cycle of Squeeze Plays.
Sure, there will be some sort of rebellion, but there will always (currently) be someone to take the mantel of control and do it all over again.
It is time to take away the sole control of control away from "elected" officials or from "leaders" and keep it for yourself.
If you can create a community of selves each looking out for their own selves but together in a common union, the cycle can be broken.
My "faith" in humanity is not blind enough to think this is possible on a grand scale right now because there are too many ignorant people.
But the cycle will be broken as long as you can get at least one other person (including yourself) out of ignorance and in a chain of such enlightenments.
Now that would make for an interesting day.
The sad thing is, everyone already knows that.
And we are not at a point right now where people are distressed or angry enough to do anything about it.
There will be another Squeeze Play in the near future.
What needs to happen is to break the cycle of Squeeze Plays.
Sure, there will be some sort of rebellion, but there will always (currently) be someone to take the mantel of control and do it all over again.
It is time to take away the sole control of control away from "elected" officials or from "leaders" and keep it for yourself.
If you can create a community of selves each looking out for their own selves but together in a common union, the cycle can be broken.
My "faith" in humanity is not blind enough to think this is possible on a grand scale right now because there are too many ignorant people.
But the cycle will be broken as long as you can get at least one other person (including yourself) out of ignorance and in a chain of such enlightenments.
Now that would make for an interesting day.
Thursday, November 10, 2005
Life Guidelines
1. Have no gods.
2. Don't worship stuff.
3. Be polite.
4. Take a day off once in a while.
5. Be nice to folks.
6. Don't kill people.
7. Don't fool around on your significant other.
8. Don't steal stuff.
9. Don't lie about stuff.
10. Don't be greedy.
Taken from www.iamanatheist.com
If only more people could follow these guidelines then things would be looking up for the world. :)
2. Don't worship stuff.
3. Be polite.
4. Take a day off once in a while.
5. Be nice to folks.
6. Don't kill people.
7. Don't fool around on your significant other.
8. Don't steal stuff.
9. Don't lie about stuff.
10. Don't be greedy.
Taken from www.iamanatheist.com
If only more people could follow these guidelines then things would be looking up for the world. :)
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
The Dance
The Dance
Wistfully she danced upon the branches
Her hair glittering in the moonlight
As if the stars themselves shone through her
Her wry smile danced upon her face
With a knowledge I wanted to know myself
And a twinkle in her eye that said so much more
Together we danced within the darkened forest
The dew glistening in the early morning light
Each touch and twirl rained wetness upon us
Is it any wonder
That I think of her
In such a way
As to make my heart
Yearn for more
Dancing?
Wistfully she danced upon the branches
Her hair glittering in the moonlight
As if the stars themselves shone through her
Her wry smile danced upon her face
With a knowledge I wanted to know myself
And a twinkle in her eye that said so much more
Together we danced within the darkened forest
The dew glistening in the early morning light
Each touch and twirl rained wetness upon us
Is it any wonder
That I think of her
In such a way
As to make my heart
Yearn for more
Dancing?
Sunday, November 06, 2005
Experience vs Analysis
So it has been a while since I last posted and probably more since it has had anything to do with me specifically.
And, really, I am ok with that. :)
Of course it decreases the number of people visiting or is wasteful of folks' time who come here regularly to see if I wrote anything. Well thanks for stopping by! :)
Anyway, I have been really enjoying experiencing life and all the nuances that that entails. I have been immersed in my own self satisfaction rather than self analysis. I have not been concerned with what it means to feel what I have been feeling (or who for that matter ;) ) and where that fits into my world view or my emotional state.
What I have been doing is experiencing all the things in my life with little or no concern for what it all means.
It isn't an unhealthy thing per se to experience life and take it for what it is, but there are activities that can be considered as self-destructive. I don't do those kinds of things. :)
Well, not any more anyways. :)
I am in a great space right now, mentally, physically, and spiritually and people have begun to see my inner beauty that I have been hiding because of my previous self-doubt and really there were some elements of self-loathing in the past too.
Anyway, I am not there right now, thankfully, and I have no plans to go there again.
I love myself and more and more people what to love me too. And that reinforces what I have been doing positively since my epiphany in January.
So fear not for me, just cheer me on that I am experiencing the great things in life that I have been keeping from myself for many years.
And if I feel like it, I will chronicle some of it. ;)
And, really, I am ok with that. :)
Of course it decreases the number of people visiting or is wasteful of folks' time who come here regularly to see if I wrote anything. Well thanks for stopping by! :)
Anyway, I have been really enjoying experiencing life and all the nuances that that entails. I have been immersed in my own self satisfaction rather than self analysis. I have not been concerned with what it means to feel what I have been feeling (or who for that matter ;) ) and where that fits into my world view or my emotional state.
What I have been doing is experiencing all the things in my life with little or no concern for what it all means.
It isn't an unhealthy thing per se to experience life and take it for what it is, but there are activities that can be considered as self-destructive. I don't do those kinds of things. :)
Well, not any more anyways. :)
I am in a great space right now, mentally, physically, and spiritually and people have begun to see my inner beauty that I have been hiding because of my previous self-doubt and really there were some elements of self-loathing in the past too.
Anyway, I am not there right now, thankfully, and I have no plans to go there again.
I love myself and more and more people what to love me too. And that reinforces what I have been doing positively since my epiphany in January.
So fear not for me, just cheer me on that I am experiencing the great things in life that I have been keeping from myself for many years.
And if I feel like it, I will chronicle some of it. ;)
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