So the first day of the 21-day Consciousness Cleanse that Starcat and I are working through deals with desires. We went through a list of all the things that we each want and each chose the two that feel the most compelling.
We were to choose an inner calling and an outer calling to focus on through this process. My inner focus, which came immediately, is freedom. Freedom to choose what to do each day, freedom to think what I want without limitations that I have put in place, freedom to travel and be where I want to be. This freedom is a calling in the sense of seeking to find within myself that direct connection with Divinity. To recognize within myself that I am a Divine being and that I am full of love and compassion. I am free to be me.
As an outer focus, I chose wealth. To me, this epitomizes the freedom I am seeking within. I wish to have a passive income that I can live off of while doing the things that I enjoy and broadening the menu from which to choose.
Now, the final part of this is to examine and explore what both of these things can do to further the world. I believe by understanding the paths along which I can find freedom, both inward and outward, I can share these insights with everyone else. I want everyone to have the opportunity to share in the freedom and wealth I will have. By finding my way, I can help others find their own way to serenity and financial freedom. Wish me luck!
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Unhooking
I had a wonderful Yule and Christmas with my family, friends, and community. We celebrated all night from dusk until dawn of Yule and had a great early morning closing ceremony with the kids who also stayed up all night. Also, I had a beautiful Christmas Eve with Mom and day with the family and with Dad.
Starcat gave me a book as a gift called "The 21-day Consciousness Cleanse" by Debbie Ford. I read up to the first day of the cleanse, which was about a third of the book. In it, she talks about unhooking your energy from things that are outside of yourself that siphon, little by little, the energy you have each day. The energy that you could be spending on projects that make your soul sing and the world rejoice.
I have been noticing lately that whenever I could get into a moment of "sucking" (of energy), I decide to unhook my energy and envision a hook at the end of an elastic cord. The further or tighter the cord is stretched, the stronger the release I feel when I unhook it. I feel much freer after each choice of unhooking.
Also, when I have a chance to rehook my energy, or hook another pattern, I have been choosing not to. Recognizing and feeling this release has been so helpful and I am overjoyed and laughing inside. I have so much more energy!
Today, I spent a lot of time on the computer and noticed that my body was feeling a bit stiff. I decided to do yoga to help rectify this rather than hook myself into reprimanding myself for doing what I did (which I enjoyed by the way). However, I have decided to mostly unhook myself from the computer during the cleanse, which Starcat and I are planning to start tomorrow morning. I do plan to check online for about an hour each day (at most) so that I can check important e-mails and blog through my journey on the cleanse.
I plan to update the blog at least five times a week to continue a regular practice of writing, as well as keep folks updated who are interested.
Take an honest look at the energy that you give to thinking about what other people are doing (whether you like what they do or not). In addition, examine how you feel when you focus exclusively on yourself for 15 minutes. Imagine the thoughts and ideas that, if you followed through with them, you could create or manifest in your life.
I look forward to this cleanse! Be well!
Starcat gave me a book as a gift called "The 21-day Consciousness Cleanse" by Debbie Ford. I read up to the first day of the cleanse, which was about a third of the book. In it, she talks about unhooking your energy from things that are outside of yourself that siphon, little by little, the energy you have each day. The energy that you could be spending on projects that make your soul sing and the world rejoice.
I have been noticing lately that whenever I could get into a moment of "sucking" (of energy), I decide to unhook my energy and envision a hook at the end of an elastic cord. The further or tighter the cord is stretched, the stronger the release I feel when I unhook it. I feel much freer after each choice of unhooking.
Also, when I have a chance to rehook my energy, or hook another pattern, I have been choosing not to. Recognizing and feeling this release has been so helpful and I am overjoyed and laughing inside. I have so much more energy!
Today, I spent a lot of time on the computer and noticed that my body was feeling a bit stiff. I decided to do yoga to help rectify this rather than hook myself into reprimanding myself for doing what I did (which I enjoyed by the way). However, I have decided to mostly unhook myself from the computer during the cleanse, which Starcat and I are planning to start tomorrow morning. I do plan to check online for about an hour each day (at most) so that I can check important e-mails and blog through my journey on the cleanse.
I plan to update the blog at least five times a week to continue a regular practice of writing, as well as keep folks updated who are interested.
Take an honest look at the energy that you give to thinking about what other people are doing (whether you like what they do or not). In addition, examine how you feel when you focus exclusively on yourself for 15 minutes. Imagine the thoughts and ideas that, if you followed through with them, you could create or manifest in your life.
I look forward to this cleanse! Be well!
Thursday, December 17, 2009
To Find a Love
A couple of my friends are in the position of seeking a companion yet are having a difficult time finding someone to be with in a relationship. I was in the same position a few years ago and I would like to offer some ideas and insights that might be helpful for someone who is seeking a partner. I am in a loving and fulfilling relationship now and want to share my insights with those who want something similar to what I have found.
For reference, from the end of a relationship when I was 19 until I found a relationship when I was 35, I was celibate and desperate for someone to love me. During that time, including my college career and much of my corporate career, I was lonely and looking for anyone to find me attractive and love me. Yes, the most "virile" time of my life was spent alone and desperately seeking another's company. I was completely alone and not able to find a mate.
To find someone takes an energy that is different than what I was offering. I was in need of someone who would complete me or make my life better, when, in fact, it was necessary for me to find who I was and be complete unto myself. The only way to find anyone you are seeking is to find yourself and be yourself.
It took me a great deal of time to love myself and be comfortable being with myself without retribution or recrimination. I had to be confident in who I was such that I was able to offer that love and affection to other people. What could I possibly know about love if I could not even love myself?
Once I found who I was and found love for myself, I was able to face the world and other people without fear or doubt (at least in significant amounts). At first, I had trepidations about interacting with the world and worried about what other people thought about me. After being myself and just letting go of my old fears, I eventually found a friend and lover who liked me. I was so ecstatic! I put a lot of effort into making her happy and trying to be interesting and exciting. Eventually, we parted ways, but still remain good friends.
As I became more myself and realized how interesting and wonderful I was, I was able to find my current partner, Starcat. She was interested in me, yet I was not able to see this affection beyond my current circumstances. Eventually, I was able to let go even more and let myself love, regardless of the circumstance. I am now completely in love with her, and am very happy with my choices!
So, after all of this offering on my part, here are my suggestions and ideas. First, let go of what you think other people want. There is no way to know what other people really want and besides, isn't it more interesting to find out what you want to offer someone else rather than conform yourself to someone else's viewpoint? Second, find out what you really want. How could you know what to look for in another person if you don't know what you want? Lastly, and the most important, to be who you are, and to find anyone else to love you no matter who you are, is imperative to your well-being. There is no way to find anyone else to share your life if you are not comfortable with who you are and do not love the unique way you work with the universe. Be yourself, and those who love you for who you are will appear. Friends and lovers will seek you out when you are yourself.
Please let go of the limitations you have set before you. You can be, do, or have all the things you want if you be yourself. Flow with the way you are and you will reward yourself with all the people and events that will encourage your vivaciousness. Enjoy and be well!
For reference, from the end of a relationship when I was 19 until I found a relationship when I was 35, I was celibate and desperate for someone to love me. During that time, including my college career and much of my corporate career, I was lonely and looking for anyone to find me attractive and love me. Yes, the most "virile" time of my life was spent alone and desperately seeking another's company. I was completely alone and not able to find a mate.
To find someone takes an energy that is different than what I was offering. I was in need of someone who would complete me or make my life better, when, in fact, it was necessary for me to find who I was and be complete unto myself. The only way to find anyone you are seeking is to find yourself and be yourself.
It took me a great deal of time to love myself and be comfortable being with myself without retribution or recrimination. I had to be confident in who I was such that I was able to offer that love and affection to other people. What could I possibly know about love if I could not even love myself?
Once I found who I was and found love for myself, I was able to face the world and other people without fear or doubt (at least in significant amounts). At first, I had trepidations about interacting with the world and worried about what other people thought about me. After being myself and just letting go of my old fears, I eventually found a friend and lover who liked me. I was so ecstatic! I put a lot of effort into making her happy and trying to be interesting and exciting. Eventually, we parted ways, but still remain good friends.
As I became more myself and realized how interesting and wonderful I was, I was able to find my current partner, Starcat. She was interested in me, yet I was not able to see this affection beyond my current circumstances. Eventually, I was able to let go even more and let myself love, regardless of the circumstance. I am now completely in love with her, and am very happy with my choices!
So, after all of this offering on my part, here are my suggestions and ideas. First, let go of what you think other people want. There is no way to know what other people really want and besides, isn't it more interesting to find out what you want to offer someone else rather than conform yourself to someone else's viewpoint? Second, find out what you really want. How could you know what to look for in another person if you don't know what you want? Lastly, and the most important, to be who you are, and to find anyone else to love you no matter who you are, is imperative to your well-being. There is no way to find anyone else to share your life if you are not comfortable with who you are and do not love the unique way you work with the universe. Be yourself, and those who love you for who you are will appear. Friends and lovers will seek you out when you are yourself.
Please let go of the limitations you have set before you. You can be, do, or have all the things you want if you be yourself. Flow with the way you are and you will reward yourself with all the people and events that will encourage your vivaciousness. Enjoy and be well!
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Creativity in Many Forms
Today I created a Certificate of Appreciation for the Maine Wholeschoolers to send to the companies and folks who donated to the Spaghetti Supper. We had over 20 different auction items as well as foods and other items donated.
I created an illumination border using colored pencils (see picture). I did 4 flowers with vines around the border based on some of techniques I learned in a new book I got called "The Art of Botanical Drawing: An Introductory Guide" by Agathe Ravet-Haevermans. She gives very interesting ways to create flowers and vines, though much of it has to do with watercolors rather than drawing. Regardless, I made a nice border that the kids can use to show their appreciation for the donations.
Also, last night, Starcat and I drummed for a Pagan fundraiser called The Longest Night. We did the introduction and the intermission and I also read the poem I wrote last week called "On This Yuletide." The poem was not on the original slate for the show, but I offered it up and it fit perfectly as the invocation for the night.
I love being able to express myself in all the the different ways I like. I also enjoy giving my time for charity as well as for my benefit monetarily. As I spend more time on my many projects, I am feeling more confident in my ability to create whatever it is I want. I love being able to spend much of the day doing creative stuff as well as playing around with the kids. I also have two patent ideas that I plan to put through the process, though I will need some assistance in that aspect.
I look forward to moving forward in all my creative endeavors!
I created an illumination border using colored pencils (see picture). I did 4 flowers with vines around the border based on some of techniques I learned in a new book I got called "The Art of Botanical Drawing: An Introductory Guide" by Agathe Ravet-Haevermans. She gives very interesting ways to create flowers and vines, though much of it has to do with watercolors rather than drawing. Regardless, I made a nice border that the kids can use to show their appreciation for the donations.
Also, last night, Starcat and I drummed for a Pagan fundraiser called The Longest Night. We did the introduction and the intermission and I also read the poem I wrote last week called "On This Yuletide." The poem was not on the original slate for the show, but I offered it up and it fit perfectly as the invocation for the night.
I love being able to express myself in all the the different ways I like. I also enjoy giving my time for charity as well as for my benefit monetarily. As I spend more time on my many projects, I am feeling more confident in my ability to create whatever it is I want. I love being able to spend much of the day doing creative stuff as well as playing around with the kids. I also have two patent ideas that I plan to put through the process, though I will need some assistance in that aspect.
I look forward to moving forward in all my creative endeavors!
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Peace
During this time of year, many people focus on peace and harmony and trying to find solutions to war and hunger. People also focus on family, friends, community, gift-giving and charity. And still others may focus on lack, greed, decadence, and humbug.
Who is right? What should any one person be focusing on? What about people who are doing anything that you do not like or that you hate or fear? How can you find peace when others are fighting for survival?
Within each of us is the answer. We each know or at least are aware of what we enjoy and what we do not enjoy. We each know that some things are wonderful to us, and other things are terrible. This knowing is the guidance of our eternal nature, our soul if you will. We are not separate from our eternal nature, but a manifestation of it. We are an emergence into this time-space continuum of our eternal being. I believe, with some introspection and meditation, that this guidance can aid each of us to the peace we seek.
To find the peace within you, stop doing the things that hurt yourself or others. Every thought is a choice. We each can choose to be who and what we want, and by listening to our inner guidance, by way of positive or negative emotions, then we can choose peace instead of war.
The major reason why we have war and hunger and fear is that most of us do not like what we see in the world or what we are experiencing and want other people to change what they are doing so that we can feel better. In other words, instead of changing ourselves to change the world, we expect and demand that others change themselves so that they will conform to the world we wish to experience. We demand that they stop hurting other people or that they stop stealing or that they stop doing those things that don't feel good to us.
The only way to change the world is from within. Hear the peace and love that is always within you and heed its advice. When you listen to your inner being, your experience of the world will get better. If you only listen to your head, you will find that you do not feel very good. Your mind is a beautiful tool for knowledge and coming up with great ideas to experience or to discover better ways of living. But without the guidance of your soul, the mind will find these "better" solutions, regardless of whether they are in line with what you truly want.
I will assume that many people may object to this line of thinking based on the notion of lack or the idea of our limited nature. Regardless of where you are on your path, we each know what feels good and what does not. The choices we make are all around us. Every person, every object, and every situation we find ourselves in is based on the majority of our thoughts.
To find the peace that is within you and to experience it throughout your experience, take time to listen within and take care of yourself. Each of us can find the peace within. Once that is found, the solutions and aid that you wish to give for others to experience will become self-evident.
Who is right? What should any one person be focusing on? What about people who are doing anything that you do not like or that you hate or fear? How can you find peace when others are fighting for survival?
Within each of us is the answer. We each know or at least are aware of what we enjoy and what we do not enjoy. We each know that some things are wonderful to us, and other things are terrible. This knowing is the guidance of our eternal nature, our soul if you will. We are not separate from our eternal nature, but a manifestation of it. We are an emergence into this time-space continuum of our eternal being. I believe, with some introspection and meditation, that this guidance can aid each of us to the peace we seek.
To find the peace within you, stop doing the things that hurt yourself or others. Every thought is a choice. We each can choose to be who and what we want, and by listening to our inner guidance, by way of positive or negative emotions, then we can choose peace instead of war.
The major reason why we have war and hunger and fear is that most of us do not like what we see in the world or what we are experiencing and want other people to change what they are doing so that we can feel better. In other words, instead of changing ourselves to change the world, we expect and demand that others change themselves so that they will conform to the world we wish to experience. We demand that they stop hurting other people or that they stop stealing or that they stop doing those things that don't feel good to us.
The only way to change the world is from within. Hear the peace and love that is always within you and heed its advice. When you listen to your inner being, your experience of the world will get better. If you only listen to your head, you will find that you do not feel very good. Your mind is a beautiful tool for knowledge and coming up with great ideas to experience or to discover better ways of living. But without the guidance of your soul, the mind will find these "better" solutions, regardless of whether they are in line with what you truly want.
I will assume that many people may object to this line of thinking based on the notion of lack or the idea of our limited nature. Regardless of where you are on your path, we each know what feels good and what does not. The choices we make are all around us. Every person, every object, and every situation we find ourselves in is based on the majority of our thoughts.
To find the peace that is within you and to experience it throughout your experience, take time to listen within and take care of yourself. Each of us can find the peace within. Once that is found, the solutions and aid that you wish to give for others to experience will become self-evident.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Deck the Halls
Tonight is my traditional tree-trimming with my Mom. This time we will also be accompanied by Starcat and the kids. I anticipate a joyous and fun-filled time!
We usually start off with playing the John Denver and the Muppets Christmas music and singing along to the 12 Days of Christmas (Fiiiiiiive Gooooooo-ooooold Riiiiiiings, ba-dum bum bum). We then begin by putting up ornaments from when I was a kid, some of which I made. We then do a dinner and a Christmas movie. This year will be "A Christmas Carol" from the 1950s, starring Alastair Sim.
I really enjoy the Christmas season and I am thankful for having such a long-standing tradition with my Mom. We both enjoy each others' company and we have a fun time reminiscing about old holidays and stories about the ornaments. We also play with her kitties, if they decide to come out and join us.
What I like most about this year is that I get to share this experience with the rest of my family. I hope they get as much fun and joy out of it as I do. I know that I will be glad to have them come along and experience decorating like I did when I was a kid. Plus it will be fun to have a Muppet sing-along as well!
And on a side note: this is the 30th day of the 30 day challenge that Starcat and I have set for ourselves to blog each day! As we go forward, we plan to continue to blog regularly as well as set up another writing challenge on our other projects. Wish us luck!
We usually start off with playing the John Denver and the Muppets Christmas music and singing along to the 12 Days of Christmas (Fiiiiiiive Gooooooo-ooooold Riiiiiiings, ba-dum bum bum). We then begin by putting up ornaments from when I was a kid, some of which I made. We then do a dinner and a Christmas movie. This year will be "A Christmas Carol" from the 1950s, starring Alastair Sim.
I really enjoy the Christmas season and I am thankful for having such a long-standing tradition with my Mom. We both enjoy each others' company and we have a fun time reminiscing about old holidays and stories about the ornaments. We also play with her kitties, if they decide to come out and join us.
What I like most about this year is that I get to share this experience with the rest of my family. I hope they get as much fun and joy out of it as I do. I know that I will be glad to have them come along and experience decorating like I did when I was a kid. Plus it will be fun to have a Muppet sing-along as well!
And on a side note: this is the 30th day of the 30 day challenge that Starcat and I have set for ourselves to blog each day! As we go forward, we plan to continue to blog regularly as well as set up another writing challenge on our other projects. Wish us luck!
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
Change
Change is the ever-present part of being. We transform and are transformed by every moment. Every thought and every action results and is a result of everything we experience consciously and unconsciously. In effect, we are the culmination of everything we have ever experienced.
Now, that may seem like a lot and potentially any act or thought could drastically change our lives in ways we are not prepared for. However, this is an effortless process and we do it all the time. The great thing about this is that we are capable of determining and choosing our thoughts and actions every day.
So, practicing anything over and over again, say negative thoughts and actions, yet expecting much in our lives to be positive is far-fetched. Any practiced action, whether what we want or not, will lead to practiced behaviors, our thoughts and actions. If we want to change our lives and beliefs in ways that result in positive thoughts and actions, we must choose to feel good, think in ways that are positive, and do actions that are fun and interesting.
Negative leads to negative, positive leads to positive; it is as simple as that.
How do we get there from where we are now? Pick your next thought or action. What does it feel like? Is it helping you to be the way you want to be or is it part of a continuing pattern that you are experiencing? Perhaps, just this once, choose to let go of the sadness or frustration that you may be feeling, or do something that feels good to you and also uplifts someone you care about.
It is your choice, choose what you like, literally.
Now, that may seem like a lot and potentially any act or thought could drastically change our lives in ways we are not prepared for. However, this is an effortless process and we do it all the time. The great thing about this is that we are capable of determining and choosing our thoughts and actions every day.
So, practicing anything over and over again, say negative thoughts and actions, yet expecting much in our lives to be positive is far-fetched. Any practiced action, whether what we want or not, will lead to practiced behaviors, our thoughts and actions. If we want to change our lives and beliefs in ways that result in positive thoughts and actions, we must choose to feel good, think in ways that are positive, and do actions that are fun and interesting.
Negative leads to negative, positive leads to positive; it is as simple as that.
How do we get there from where we are now? Pick your next thought or action. What does it feel like? Is it helping you to be the way you want to be or is it part of a continuing pattern that you are experiencing? Perhaps, just this once, choose to let go of the sadness or frustration that you may be feeling, or do something that feels good to you and also uplifts someone you care about.
It is your choice, choose what you like, literally.
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
You Are What You Eat
One of the things I have been noticing about myself in the past week is how the foods I eat are affecting my body and my moods. I have been on a sugar/sweetener fast since Samhain and I planned to continue until Yule (though now I want to continue it past this time frame). I have also been doing a dairy fast as well during this same time, with less encouraging results.
This week I have been eating dairy, mainly cheese, almost every day and I have noticed more blemishes on my face as well as having grumpy mood swings more often. When I was a baby, I was allergic to milk and would break out in eczema. So it is not a surprise that I am still sensitive to dairy. What bothers me is that I also seem to still crave cheese on occasion as well.
In any event, I believe that what I am eating is not only going to affect how my body works, but it is an extension of what I am thinking and feeling about myself. I know that I will feel icky (this is the official scientific term) if I have too much sugar or dairy. So, if I am feeling crappy about myself or in a negative space, the foods I look for are the ones that will continue or exacerbate that mood. It sometimes takes a Herculean effort to choose other foods.
Thankfully, I keep a supply of soy milk available for my milk cravings. I know some people do not like the taste, but I grew up on it and enjoy it. Also, I have raisins and dates available to munch on if I have a sugar craving. I think as I move forward, I want to focus less on what I am eating and more on how I am feeling about what I am eating. In that way, I know I will choose the foods that work best for my body rather than working against what my body enjoys.
Listen to your body because it knows how to heal itself and stop letting your negative emotions fuel your body.
This week I have been eating dairy, mainly cheese, almost every day and I have noticed more blemishes on my face as well as having grumpy mood swings more often. When I was a baby, I was allergic to milk and would break out in eczema. So it is not a surprise that I am still sensitive to dairy. What bothers me is that I also seem to still crave cheese on occasion as well.
In any event, I believe that what I am eating is not only going to affect how my body works, but it is an extension of what I am thinking and feeling about myself. I know that I will feel icky (this is the official scientific term) if I have too much sugar or dairy. So, if I am feeling crappy about myself or in a negative space, the foods I look for are the ones that will continue or exacerbate that mood. It sometimes takes a Herculean effort to choose other foods.
Thankfully, I keep a supply of soy milk available for my milk cravings. I know some people do not like the taste, but I grew up on it and enjoy it. Also, I have raisins and dates available to munch on if I have a sugar craving. I think as I move forward, I want to focus less on what I am eating and more on how I am feeling about what I am eating. In that way, I know I will choose the foods that work best for my body rather than working against what my body enjoys.
Listen to your body because it knows how to heal itself and stop letting your negative emotions fuel your body.
Monday, December 07, 2009
On This Yuletide
Put on your coat
Put on your boots
It is time again
To go outside
And celebrate around the fire
The winter is cold
And in full swing
We can see our breath
We can see the circle
With the logs set just so
We come together
On this longest night
To celebrate the return
Of the Sun
From his deep slumber
We hold hands
And sing a carol
We dance and smile
As the bonfire burns
And lifts the night
With hails to each
The directions we call
Earth, Air, Fire, Water
And to our ancestors
We give our lovely praise
With energy raised
And our hearts filled
We return inside
Cider and nog mugs
Brimming for our warmth
A feast on the table
Great foods to imbibe
And pies of all kinds
To keep our energy up
For our long vigil
On this Yuletide
We come together
With friends and family
From dusk until dawn
We gives thanks anew
Put on your boots
It is time again
To go outside
And celebrate around the fire
The winter is cold
And in full swing
We can see our breath
We can see the circle
With the logs set just so
We come together
On this longest night
To celebrate the return
Of the Sun
From his deep slumber
We hold hands
And sing a carol
We dance and smile
As the bonfire burns
And lifts the night
With hails to each
The directions we call
Earth, Air, Fire, Water
And to our ancestors
We give our lovely praise
With energy raised
And our hearts filled
We return inside
Cider and nog mugs
Brimming for our warmth
A feast on the table
Great foods to imbibe
And pies of all kinds
To keep our energy up
For our long vigil
On this Yuletide
We come together
With friends and family
From dusk until dawn
We gives thanks anew
Sunday, December 06, 2009
Color and Light
I really enjoy color and light. I like every color and shade, each evoking a different feeling and emotion within me. The fascination stems mainly from my artistic tendencies, but also my logical ones as well. The main reason for studying physics was to understand and explore the universe. Astronomy is my passion, and what better way to study light then to look deep into the universe at all the variety and change that happens throughout.
Now that we have our first snowfall here in New England, I can start to enjoy the many shades and compositions using white. Plus, with all the reflection and refraction of sunlight amongst the snow crystals, I can enjoy a rainbow within the sparkling white.
In addition, I bought some light tubes that are about a half a millimeter in diameter and maybe a foot in length with varying color coatings. I plan to create "light faeries" out of them by fanning the tubes out in the shapes of wings or other wispy shapes and let the ambient light, or sunlight create a visually pleasing show. Because the light going into the tubes is bounced off the inside of the tube, the ends of the tube tend to glow while still lighting up the rest of the length. This will be a fun project, and I hope to make several of them with the amount of tubing I got.
I also want to explore more media in which I can create dazzling displays of light and color in the near future as I learn more techniques of art and expand my confidence in the arts as well. My next goal is to learn glassblowing and create elaborate (or simple ones to start) glass projects so that I can play with light and form in fun ways. Wish me luck!
Now that we have our first snowfall here in New England, I can start to enjoy the many shades and compositions using white. Plus, with all the reflection and refraction of sunlight amongst the snow crystals, I can enjoy a rainbow within the sparkling white.
In addition, I bought some light tubes that are about a half a millimeter in diameter and maybe a foot in length with varying color coatings. I plan to create "light faeries" out of them by fanning the tubes out in the shapes of wings or other wispy shapes and let the ambient light, or sunlight create a visually pleasing show. Because the light going into the tubes is bounced off the inside of the tube, the ends of the tube tend to glow while still lighting up the rest of the length. This will be a fun project, and I hope to make several of them with the amount of tubing I got.
I also want to explore more media in which I can create dazzling displays of light and color in the near future as I learn more techniques of art and expand my confidence in the arts as well. My next goal is to learn glassblowing and create elaborate (or simple ones to start) glass projects so that I can play with light and form in fun ways. Wish me luck!
Saturday, December 05, 2009
Pampering Myself
I don't often make a habit of taking the time to nurture or pamper myself. I do have comfortable bedding for when I sleep, but for the most part I don't think of it. When I came home from bringing Dryst to soccer, Starcat was enjoying a heating pad on her lower back because of cramps. So I tried it out and it felt really good!
I am thinking of putting an electric blanket on my bed for the upcoming winter. Why not heat it up a little while before sliding into that warm, comfortable bed? I am also going to add more days of "me time" during the month, maybe once per week, or more. I think I might take myself out to lunch (though some of you may already think I have!) or Starcat and I can go on a walking and lunch date too.
By far I do not live a decadent lifestyle, but I am really interested in taking more time to take care of myself and treat myself well. When I create my castle (or "catsle" because I am a lion after all) I want a room called the pillow room. Completely filled with pillows of all shapes, sizes and fluffiness. Perhaps a little decadence isn't a bad thing.
In any event, perhaps taking time to relax and take care of yourself from stressful times should be a priority. Why not brew that tea, find a comfy seat, and curl up with a great book? It will create within you a sense of connectedness and a sense of your own divinity.
I am thinking of putting an electric blanket on my bed for the upcoming winter. Why not heat it up a little while before sliding into that warm, comfortable bed? I am also going to add more days of "me time" during the month, maybe once per week, or more. I think I might take myself out to lunch (though some of you may already think I have!) or Starcat and I can go on a walking and lunch date too.
By far I do not live a decadent lifestyle, but I am really interested in taking more time to take care of myself and treat myself well. When I create my castle (or "catsle" because I am a lion after all) I want a room called the pillow room. Completely filled with pillows of all shapes, sizes and fluffiness. Perhaps a little decadence isn't a bad thing.
In any event, perhaps taking time to relax and take care of yourself from stressful times should be a priority. Why not brew that tea, find a comfy seat, and curl up with a great book? It will create within you a sense of connectedness and a sense of your own divinity.
Friday, December 04, 2009
Circle
I stand quietly in the sacred circle, my hands in my pocket and my breath steaming whitely into the cold. I am waiting my turn to speak and patiently listening to those around me telling of their journey and their path. Usually, I am reserved and do not speak out very often, but today I have chosen to speak my truth to more than just myself.
In the past, I would say "blessed be" after each person would finish their story and shake my head when my turn was up. Each one was gracious in my negation, but they each, at other times, have spoken to me about my kindness and joy of life. I am an introvert by nature but when I am in trusted company, I give of myself freely and easily.
Today, in this circle, I feel different. I have a confidence and knowing that is transcending my fears and doubts about myself. I am really worth listening to and I have information and knowledge that others will wish to know. Perhaps this season, because of its warmer weather, except for this chilly night, has given me more time to think about myself while still enjoying nature and the clear night sky.
I try to remain focused on each speaker and give my full attention, but my excitement to speak next seems to be too powerful to ignore. I have something to say, and I am anxious to say it. I hope it is taken well and I hope that the others will be kind in their listening and acceptance of this knowledge. Perhaps they are focused on the other speaker as I should be, or, what if they are focused more on their own thoughts than the words of others?
The circle is quiet and the many eyes of my friends, family, and coven mates now turn to me. I can see that others are looking to the next person in the round as if I am expected to acquiesce and bow out once again. My cheeks flush and the words and knowledge that I am so excited to share begin to jumble and mix together. I don't remember the practiced beginning line and the rest is a mere shadow, boxing with itself off into the night.
I lower then shake my head slowly. Sympathetic eyes look at me for but a moment more then turn to the next in line.
"Perhaps next time," I think to myself, dejected a little in my nervousness.
In the past, I would say "blessed be" after each person would finish their story and shake my head when my turn was up. Each one was gracious in my negation, but they each, at other times, have spoken to me about my kindness and joy of life. I am an introvert by nature but when I am in trusted company, I give of myself freely and easily.
Today, in this circle, I feel different. I have a confidence and knowing that is transcending my fears and doubts about myself. I am really worth listening to and I have information and knowledge that others will wish to know. Perhaps this season, because of its warmer weather, except for this chilly night, has given me more time to think about myself while still enjoying nature and the clear night sky.
I try to remain focused on each speaker and give my full attention, but my excitement to speak next seems to be too powerful to ignore. I have something to say, and I am anxious to say it. I hope it is taken well and I hope that the others will be kind in their listening and acceptance of this knowledge. Perhaps they are focused on the other speaker as I should be, or, what if they are focused more on their own thoughts than the words of others?
The circle is quiet and the many eyes of my friends, family, and coven mates now turn to me. I can see that others are looking to the next person in the round as if I am expected to acquiesce and bow out once again. My cheeks flush and the words and knowledge that I am so excited to share begin to jumble and mix together. I don't remember the practiced beginning line and the rest is a mere shadow, boxing with itself off into the night.
I lower then shake my head slowly. Sympathetic eyes look at me for but a moment more then turn to the next in line.
"Perhaps next time," I think to myself, dejected a little in my nervousness.
Maine Wholeschoolers' Success
Thanks to the generosity of our wonderful community, the Spaghetti Supper was a huge success! We raised over $400., and the discussions at our celebration tonight have been about a trip to the Boston Museum of Science, helping our new Drama Club put on a play they write in a real theater, and investing in a community service project to help disadvantaged girls & women (among other things).
Thank you all so very much for supporting this very cool and creative group of kids in their chosen education!
I had a great time making spaghetti, helping the girls do their thing, and joking around with our family and friends. An overall good time!
Thank you all so very much for supporting this very cool and creative group of kids in their chosen education!
I had a great time making spaghetti, helping the girls do their thing, and joking around with our family and friends. An overall good time!
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
Chaos
One of the things that I find challenging sometimes is when I experience someone acting chaotically or acting out of their norm. Whatever the reason, I can empathize with how they are feeling because I have been there before, but I also do not enjoy re-feeling those emotions over again.
Right now, I feel I need to pull my energy back and find another place to be when I'm in those situations. I am looking to find other ways of overcoming such challenges, but right now it feels like I am just coming back into my own power and balance and anything that potentially could knock me out of whack can be discouraging.
In any event, I am still learning the best way to allow someone else to be in whatever state they are and still be in my own center. Most of the time, I am rather good at it, but when I sometimes get a full dose directed at me, I curl up and find another place to be or snarl right back at the person.
If I am truly in my center, I can be in any situation without having to pick up the negative emotions anyone else is feeling. I want to be able to stay there so that the other person can get out of their funk and have an anchor or rock to hold on to while in their chaotic storm. With more patience and practice, I hope to be able to offer myself more often and still feel my power.
Right now, I feel I need to pull my energy back and find another place to be when I'm in those situations. I am looking to find other ways of overcoming such challenges, but right now it feels like I am just coming back into my own power and balance and anything that potentially could knock me out of whack can be discouraging.
In any event, I am still learning the best way to allow someone else to be in whatever state they are and still be in my own center. Most of the time, I am rather good at it, but when I sometimes get a full dose directed at me, I curl up and find another place to be or snarl right back at the person.
If I am truly in my center, I can be in any situation without having to pick up the negative emotions anyone else is feeling. I want to be able to stay there so that the other person can get out of their funk and have an anchor or rock to hold on to while in their chaotic storm. With more patience and practice, I hope to be able to offer myself more often and still feel my power.
Tuesday, December 01, 2009
CSA and Cooking
One of the fun things I am enjoying about being part of a CSA (community supported agriculture) program is the different kinds of vegetables we get for each installment. This week we received some staple items such as onions and potatoes, but we also got ones like brussels sprouts, parsnips and celeriac.
If I was at the store, I would not think to buy these veggies, let alone put them in a stir fry, like in the pad thai we made tonight, but we experimented and it came out great! In fact, we have been creating our weekly menu based on the CSA veggies rather than trying to fit them into our "regular" menu.
I enjoy cooking and I also like to learn new flavors and textures to put in my recipes. I am personally really good at spicing foods, so the rarer interplay of these vegetables compared to the spices I know allows me a new spectrum of subtlety and nuance in my cooking.
For Thanksgiving, we had three different kinds of squash: butternut, acorn and delicata. The acorn and delicata we got from the CSA and the mix came out great! On Monday, we got another butternut and delicata, each from the CSA and the medley came out wonderful. The delicata has a nice, sweet flavor which mixes well with the butternut and maple syrup.
In any event, I have really enjoyed cooking with these new foods recently and I think I am going to start adding new and strange fruits and veggies to my regular shopping, to see what I can get for flavors.
If I was at the store, I would not think to buy these veggies, let alone put them in a stir fry, like in the pad thai we made tonight, but we experimented and it came out great! In fact, we have been creating our weekly menu based on the CSA veggies rather than trying to fit them into our "regular" menu.
I enjoy cooking and I also like to learn new flavors and textures to put in my recipes. I am personally really good at spicing foods, so the rarer interplay of these vegetables compared to the spices I know allows me a new spectrum of subtlety and nuance in my cooking.
For Thanksgiving, we had three different kinds of squash: butternut, acorn and delicata. The acorn and delicata we got from the CSA and the mix came out great! On Monday, we got another butternut and delicata, each from the CSA and the medley came out wonderful. The delicata has a nice, sweet flavor which mixes well with the butternut and maple syrup.
In any event, I have really enjoyed cooking with these new foods recently and I think I am going to start adding new and strange fruits and veggies to my regular shopping, to see what I can get for flavors.
Indifference and Competition
Technically, I have not posted a blog for November 30th, but, as Starcat says, "it's not a new day until you go to sleep." So here I am at 12:30 AM writing my blog. Also, since I don't go to bed until 1 or 2 AM usually, then it is not really cheating either! :)
Now on to the blog...
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I am losing my taste for competition and watching competitive sports. I am finding the anger and frustration when my team does "poorly" or the refs make a "bad call" to be the antithesis to what I want to build and strive for. In the past, I was much more competitive and would get into terribly violent verbal tirades and shouting at my the poor inanimate television.
The only way I have found to "combat" these feelings from welling up is to be indifferent to the outcome of the match. Which really goes against the grain of these sort of events in the first place. Rabid fandom makes money for these businesses and the accompanying merchandising keeps the momentum going.
Now, I am not saying that sports are "evil" or "bad." Frankly, I am tired of the whole process in general. I do not want to tie my emotional enjoyment of life on whether my team "wins" or "loses," or makes a "good" or "bad" play. Those are all value judgments and I am feeling the desire to let all of those go.
Instead, I am planning to replace these feelings with more cooperative and constructive ways of being with friends. I think what I want to do instead is have more get-togethers and plan more events that do not necessarily include watching sports together. The main reason I want to do these events is for the camaraderie and all the fun jokes and silliness we do together.
Now that I am outside of the situation, I can see that my actions and the words and feelings I am having are not really conducive to what I want. I think, instead, I will focus more on my friends and the company I am keeping, rather than the outcome or situation in any of the games or sports I am a part of.
Now on to the blog...
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I am losing my taste for competition and watching competitive sports. I am finding the anger and frustration when my team does "poorly" or the refs make a "bad call" to be the antithesis to what I want to build and strive for. In the past, I was much more competitive and would get into terribly violent verbal tirades and shouting at my the poor inanimate television.
The only way I have found to "combat" these feelings from welling up is to be indifferent to the outcome of the match. Which really goes against the grain of these sort of events in the first place. Rabid fandom makes money for these businesses and the accompanying merchandising keeps the momentum going.
Now, I am not saying that sports are "evil" or "bad." Frankly, I am tired of the whole process in general. I do not want to tie my emotional enjoyment of life on whether my team "wins" or "loses," or makes a "good" or "bad" play. Those are all value judgments and I am feeling the desire to let all of those go.
Instead, I am planning to replace these feelings with more cooperative and constructive ways of being with friends. I think what I want to do instead is have more get-togethers and plan more events that do not necessarily include watching sports together. The main reason I want to do these events is for the camaraderie and all the fun jokes and silliness we do together.
Now that I am outside of the situation, I can see that my actions and the words and feelings I am having are not really conducive to what I want. I think, instead, I will focus more on my friends and the company I am keeping, rather than the outcome or situation in any of the games or sports I am a part of.
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