Monday, January 03, 2005

Connectivity

What is it that draws a person to another person?

Is it outward beauty or inner fire? Or perhaps a bit of both, there are never any black and whites in the world, just an abundancy of colors. (I hate the term shades of grey because it is so humdrum).

I think it is a deep desire to garner the strength of others to replenish or to embolden one's weaknesses or faults. It is a need to feel more complete. Why does someone find that special someone? The strengths and weaknesses of the other intermesh better than most other people.

Sure, there are still shallow people where "anyone" will do. Or someone so deep where "noone" can fill that void. People settle with others because it is convenient or it satisifies a temporary need.

It is rather callous and selfish and frankly arrogant of me to consider myself so deep that noone can fill that void. But often times it feels that way. But that has been covered already. :)

Friends are a way to help fill the void, and I consider myself pretty friendly. I have a great breadth of friends and I have enough depth in some of them to satiate my desire for a more complete relationship. But again it comes down to selfishness and my desire for more, and that is why I go out. Find more and interesting people, keep my connections to those I care about and hope to find a fire out there that can light the void brightly.

Again, selfish, because it is my desire as well to light someone else's darkness. My want to light a bonfire in someone's soul and light each other's paths toward a togetherness not known before.

Wow, that's pie-in-the-sky like. But still something worth pursuing!

Speaking of friends, I'd like to give a little shout out to other friend's who fill some of my void. (And no not like that heh).

http://anarchyzen.blogspot.com
http://dehuman8.blogspot.com

I'd give you more info but I would rather their words speak for themselves. :)

Just remember to speak your truths and let those you care about know that you do.

J and I, I care about you and am glad to call you friends. :)

Enough gushing of love, time for a pretzel!

1 comment:

Unknown said...

Hey, at least I didn't call you Mr. Pink!