Reconciliation

So I am trying to figure out what my world-view is in light of my inspiration over the weekend and it has not been a simple task. I have found myself every morning letting the self-doubt awaken once again and by sheer force of will remember that I am who I am and not worry about what other's think of me. Not easy, let me tell you.

Why is it that we take the opinion of other people to justify what and who we are is really important. It's this justification that is actually hurting your self (notice the space). In fact, regardless of what others think, you need to be comfortable with who you are and that your decisions are right for you. If, of course, your decisions are not based on what is in your self-interest (notice I have been refraining from using best-interest) then only you are accountable to them.

No one can tell you what to think, though they try real hard. Perhaps they can have an effect after prolonged exposure to their input. In other words they are trying to "convince" you or really "indoctrinate" you into their way of thinking "for your own good."

It began young with your parents, then school, then work and government and society and any number of other "institutions" to make sure you are "good" and "obedient" and "moral" and "free" and "right" and blah blah blah.

The best person to know these things, or even if these things are important, is you. Not me, not them, not your family, or friends or boss, or anyone, just you.

So imagine you're peeling back the immense rotting onion levels that have been covering yourself for many years and see what is really there. Once you even start doing that, the rest will follow.

But like I said, the reconciliation of figuring these things out is not necessarily easy, at least for me. :)

Make it so, because no one else can.