Resolution

I think I had mentioned a while ago how it is hard sometimes to keep the self-doubt from creeping in in the morning.

It's like an ongoing struggle because, on the one hand, I am a scientist and see the world through eyes of causality, relativity and mathematics. I can understand how things work, why they work and think of ways to test theories. On the other hand, I am an emotional, caring, compassionate, and loving person. I care about other people, and can empathize with what is happening in their lives and I try to help them out when I can.

I just wonder where this conflict arose.

I usually have an easy time changing hats, so to speak, which allows me to analyze one minute when it comes to work or learning or teaching and another minute change hats to listen to someone's troubles and give support as needed.

But sometimes I wear both hats at the same time, trying to figure someone out using my analyzer hat, which rarely works, or try to change how things are by hoping they are different and seeing the potential for making things better.

Apparently I am in analytical mode because I am trying to figure myself out. As you may have seen the other day, I was trying to figure my self out with my emotional hat. Neither seems to be working out quite right.

Anyway, the battle still rages and I really would like to know if there is an end to the war, or is it just a thing that goes on until you cannot fight any more.