Self-Confidence

Do you trust in your own judgment? Do you need to follow what other people say or do or are you the leader?

I find that my self-confidence, though bolstered in my new revelations, still wavers once in a while. Usually when I first wake up and am still a bit disoriented.

It takes me a few minutes to wake up and realize how great I am. :)

That can sound pretty negative I suppose but really it is reaffirming that I am an individual and that my thoughts and actions are really important to me. Granted, I definitely take advice from other people which can only help me grow as a person, but still, it is nice to know I have a firm self foundation.

As you probably noticed this weekend, I was pretty down. I was suffering from my own imagination. I actually have a very good imagination, which definitely can lead to all sorts of fanciful ideas about how things should be and how that can affect the now. But in reality, my imagination brought out emotions in me that, at least this time, were negative.

Needless to say, I was wrong in my imaginations. Good for me in reality actually but it definitely woke me up to my fanciful ideas about the future and evaluations of the past.

I guess what I am trying to say is, the future will take care of itself as long as you live in the present. Learning from the past is also important, but only with a firm grasp of the present.

Anyway, I am still happy with my self and who I am. My confidence is still high as long as I don't let my imagination get control of me (as far as trying to force the imagination on reality).

Then again, in the right circumstances, imagination is a big asset. :)

It's hard being both an adult and a child at the same time!