Torture

Ok, I am doing it again. I am torturing myself by having fanciful ideas about someone.

Some of you might know who that is, most probably not.

Anyway, I am an emotional person and I have a tendency, actually it is quite a habit now, of somehow getting feelings for someone before anything happens. Sure, we talk and stuff and I think I got a look, but who knows. I am really bad about that kind of stuff.

But the problem really is that I get too ahead of myself and start thinking of possibilities of things happening. Or I imagine things happening that haven't yet, and probably won't.

Needless to say I am torturing myself again with my imaginations of the potential of dating this particular someone.

Gah, now I have two things in me. One is saying, "No it won't happen so stop torturing yourself" and the other is saying, "Say something and see what happens."

Still torn as what to do. I want to know the answer, but I also dread the answer.

Grumble, did I mention that my imagination is bad for me? :)