The Truth

So I have been listening to Randi Rhodes today, she is fun to listen to and has a good idea about what's going on in the world.

What came to mind is the truth. The real truth may never be known but at least personal truth can be given. And it irks me (actually angers me) about how this administration lies all the time and misrepresents the truth. Anyway, that's a different topic altogether from where I wanted to go.

What I want from people is the truth. Sure, the truth hurts, who cares? I am strong enough to take it. So tell me damn it. I can't learn or better myself if you don't tell me the truth. Tell me I look fat, I am working on it. Tell me my hair looks like a bad 70's Starsky and Hutch episode. Tell me you don't want to go out with me because I scare you (tie in from another post :) ). Tell me that you love me. Tell me you hate me. Tell me I am acting stupid or my idea sucks. Just tell me.

I want to know these things so I can change or better myself or tell you to fuck off cause I am really right and you aren't. I can't stand being in the dark about things. I know this about myself because I am poor often times of reading people's minds, or reading subtle hints and body language. I know this because I try to hear the truth that you are saying. And in this way, if you really tell me the truth, I can understand what your body language really means. Until then I can't really learn it can I?

I am a visual learner when accompanied with the verbal. That way I have two types of input to correlate to what is being given. I also learn by writing but that doesn't help much in social situations. :) Unless of course you are deaf or mute. :)

Anyway, I don't expect much from this confession. I know what I want but, obviously, don't always get what I want. But, I want to learn; I love to learn. I want to figure it out. I know it is a problem and I am a problem-solver, at least for myself. I am very in-touch with my feelings and the feelings of others but that subtle non-verbal crap (not associated with feelings) is hard for me.

So be kind, rewind.

Err...that's not exactly what I mean. :)

[Edit: oops wrong link adress, corrected now 6:30pm]