So it seems that my new positive attitude is getting on people's nerves. Not sure why that is exactly. Some of it might be their own fears, some of it might be I am being too aggressive and some of it is something else.
I can't do anything about the first.
Some people either have gone through what I am going through, probably much earlier in some cases, and know that the high will go away at some point. But I don't think I should not enjoy myself for the sake of knowing it will be going downhill eventually.
That's kinda negative and I am not all into that right now. :)
The aggressiveness I can control, but should I have to? Maybe to the point of not alienating my friends but I am feeling good, I want to express it because that's how I am. :)
It's not really a negative aggressive per se but I am determined in speech and action. I am very straightforward with most people and it might be grating telling people the truth as openly as I have been recently.
Obviously I don't want to piss people off, but I am not going to try to pleasure people at my own expense. That's the whole thing about being an egoist. Do it for yourself.
So my dilemma right now is, how much positive vibes can I give off without making people uncomfortable. People generally don't express themselves in ways I can pick up on very well, so I do appreciate my friends telling me how they feel.
As to the unknown reason, it remains unknown. Hopefully I am not pushing any friends away by being myself by being more open about it.
Though I would miss anyone who chooses to not like my attitude, it might be for the best in the long run. Or they might figure that they want me in their lives.
Hopefully it all works out. :)
1 comment:
heh, nothing wrong with a new attitude, but hide it from people? bad advice, fuck 'em all and let god sort 'em out. everyone annoys their friends at some point or another, hell, with me it can be a daily ritual. enjoy the ride while it lasts, soon you too shall be dead inside :)
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