100 Things About Me

Here are 100 things about me that you may or may not know about.

Some of them are blatantly obvious, others not many know about, and some are ones I might not have told anyone else ever.

As to the repercussions to those ones, I will find out, but I might as well be up front about them.

The other thing I want to mention is that some of these are hard to write because I am not sure how to explain them to other people or how or why I got to this point.

One thing is clear though. Without these things that I have done or have happened I would not be who I am today. :)

Hope this is illuminating.

P.S. And sorry for the ones that are TMI. :) Well, not really. ;)

100 Things about Me (as of August 1, 2005)

1. I am male.
2. I am going to be 35 this year.
3. My birthday is on August 6th, the same day as Hiroshima only 35 years different.
4. I like to dance to alternative 80's music.
5. I am a drummer.
6. I am in a band called Freakwitch.
7. I write poetry.
8. I am also teaching myself how to play keyboards.
9. I have a B.A. in Physics with a minor in Mathematics.
10. I graduated from the University of Southern Maine.
11. It took me 10 years to get my degree after changing majors (from Geography/Anthropology) and taking 3 years off to do "real" world stuff.
12. I am an egoist after being a self-sacrificer for a very long time (hard habit to break).
13. I am nice (a boon and bane at the same time).
14. I have a quirky sense of humor.
15. I don't like telling canned jokes mainly because I can't remember them.
16. I don't like playing other people's music (for the most part) for the same reason.
17. I am not as smart as people think I am.
18. I self-deprecate (not defecate) for laughs and insecurities.
19. I like to travel (been to Iceland, France and Hawaii so far but plan on going more places).
20. I have a brother (psuche).
21. I have a stepbrother (Mike).
22. I write algorithms (mathematical software) for work.
23. I like my job because I can get the job done early and can goof off (like writing this) at other times and still get praised for doing a good job.
24. I am getting a promotion because of my "hard work".
25. If anyone at work reads this and cares to rat me out, I might get in trouble, but most likely would be watched more closely than I am now.
26. I haven't had a girlfriend since I was 20.
27. I haven't had sex since I was 20.
28. I have a terrible time "sealing" the deal with non-aggressive/non-forward women (they do it for me :) ).
29. I love to flirt.
30. I cannot read signals well at all except the "you're creeping me out" ones (which is good I suppose).
31. I am a big fan of honesty and secure enough to take it.
32. I am a Reiki practitioner.
33. I do Reiki on myself all the time and I want to give my friends Reiki too.
34. I give good massages.
35. I am also good at cunnilingus.
36. I am a sensual person and enjoy pleasuring all of my partner's parts.
37. I am totally infatuated with the female body.
38. I think the male body is hairy and disgusting.
39. I used to drink a lot of Diet Mountain Dew (8 20 oz. a day down to 3 20 oz. a day).
40. I smoked for the better part of 16 years and quit once for 3 years and am now quit for a little over 4 months now.
41. I am a bit overweight and have been working out for the past few months (since I quit smoking) to lose the weight.
42. Most of my weight was gained from self-loathing and self-doubt.
43. I have since changed my attitude (egoist) and am feeling much better about things and myself.
44. I have a higher calling in this life and I am only now trying to figure out what it is.
45. I am a healer at heart and enjoying helping people.
46. I think that a hierarchical society benefits those at the top and hurts those at the bottom, regardless of the system.
47. I am anarchist trapped in a corrupted capitalistic society trying to get by without getting involved.
48. I am often lazy or perceived lazy when I have no clue how to begin something.
49. I get upset when things change until I get a chance to think about them and reevaluate my new situation.
50. I know there is an ultimate fairness in the universe (whether it be karma or whatever phraseology you call it) and one way or another it will be fulfilled.
51. I think all organized religions are a huge farce and a way to control people into doing horrible things to other people.
52. I think the same for governments.
53. My teeth rotted out of my face because of a combination of heredity (soft enamel), smoking and Mountain Dew. I now have new prettier ones.
54. Very few people knew that about me until now.
55. I am self-conscious about it and have concerns that people will think I am more of a freak then I already am.
56. I am not Goth but women in Goth attire arouse me.
57. I love wearing silk shirts when I go out.
58. When I wear silk shirts, I feel myself up a lot just because it feels good on my skin.
59. I have a wide array of music that I listen to, from U2 and INXS to Metallica and System Of A Down to VNV Nation and The Cure to The Beatles and The Beach Boys to Mozart and Berlioz and everything in between except Rap, Country and Opera.
60. I have spent an hour on this list so far while at work and am not ashamed of it. :)
61. I read a lot of blogs (that are linked below as well as others that are not linked).
62. I would be doing astronomy or astrophysics if my GPA was better, in other words, the few years in my old major fucked up my overall GPA.
63. I applied to many graduate schools and got no offers, though I was on a few waiting lists (which didn't pan out).
64. I hate paperwork.
65. I paid a friend of mine to fill out my applications for college because I hate paperwork.
66. I love watching hockey and football.
67. I love to play basketball and volleyball.
68. I used to be a "cry baby" when I was a kid until I broke my collarbone and no one believed me for 3 days.
69. I am not a big fan of blowjobs because of the whole teeth thing, I have a sensitive penis. This was a TMI moment. :)
70. I put that particular one in 69 because I am a dork. :) Excellent! *air guitar*
71. I have lasted longer than 3 hours before having an orgasm.
72. I have a U.S. patent (US 6,001,006 B2) and a plaque to go with it.
73. I am not published but would have been with the patent if upper management didn'’t ax it.
74. I was original concerned that I could not fill out 100 of these but I am almost done and have more things I want to say.
75. I don't watch TV hardly at all, though I am dedicated to a few TV shows from when I did watch it a lot (mostly Sci-Fi stuff like StarGate).
76. I am a pretty good cook but I don't like to make things for myself unless they are straightforward (like broiling streak or whatever).
77. I drink Magnar's Hard Cider because I prefer it to beer or other sweeter ciders.
78. I don't drink hard alcohol very often and get trashed way quicker than beer/cider.
79. I have a great metabolism (even with all the abuse I do to it with alcohol) and rarely get colds or get sick.
80. I haven't been to the doctor's for at least 15 years.
81. I have an HMO plan at work and have never met or talked to the doctor I chose or any person from their office. I chose him because of his name: Dexter.
82. I am not part of my work's 401K because I hate the stock market.
83. I will most likely be homeless when I retire.
84. I am going to my first (big) SCA event for 2 weeks (starting on Friday) and am excited and anxious at the same time because it is new and different. (See 49)
85. I live alone.
86. I have a real cool apartment intown.
87. I used to have a lot of money saved up (> $10k) but now I am on the edge like I was in college and I don't understand exactly why.
88. I think it has a lot to do with the new apartment and all the extra expenses associated with that and going out more often.
89. Almost all the women I hang out with I have had a crush on at one time or another (or still do) but won't do anything about it because they have a S.O.
90. If I were a true egoist I wouldn't honor my code of ethics because it is limiting.
91. I have a code of ethics that won't allow me to try and break anyone else's relationship (regardless of the situation) or allow anyone to break their marriage vows even if we wanted to.
92. I have excluded a large part of the human population for dating/sex because of my particular code.
93. I think I might need to change it or be less stringent about it.
94. I have a lot of good friends and I care about them a lot even if they do dumb things sometimes.
95. I hate people who do dumb things ALL the time, i.e. stupid people.
96. I watch too much Internet porn.
97. I have a real good collection.
98. I fear I have said way too many personal things and I won't like the repercussions.
99. I will be sad if I lose any friends over any of this but then again they were not really friends if a little truth hurts our relationship.
100. I am glad I did this list and most likely I have missed many other things that might be interesting.

Now you know a lot of the things that make me who I am and what got me to this point.

Is it a perfect spot? No.

Is it a good spot? Heck yeah, I really am enjoying my life right now.

Do I want more? Absolutely, why continue if you don't want more out of life? And yes, I think it is the stupidest thing in the world to kill yourself.

Well, that's it.

Here goes nothing... *presses "Publish Post" button*