Relax

Sometimes I like to relax. I know, a luxury for a lot of people, but I like to do relaxing things at least once a day if not more often. I like to read, play games, do research on the computer, walk, play sports, watch sports, do art, make music, and enjoy hanging out with the family, among many things.

I also know that I do not always take care of my wants as much as I would like sometimes. I also feel somewhat guilty for actually indulging the pleasures that I want to enjoy. Perhaps it is a matter of conditioning but the fact remains that I do have those feelings. I guess my focus, during those times, is more on what other people may think of me doing something for myself rather than doing it because I am worth taking care of.

One of the challenges I am overcoming is that I really do like me, but do not always show it or do the things that really take care of me. I have been fasting from sugar and sweeteners since Samhain and I will continue until Yule (with a one-day reprieve on Thanksgiving). I am also taking a break on dairy, though I do have some on occasion. So far I feel clearer and I am losing weight. Which only makes sense at the rate I had been eating sugar the past couple months.

In any event, my focus has been drinking more raw vegan smoothies/elixirs for breakfast as well as only eating when hungry. I know that this is only the “action” portion of my life. In addition, I have been focusing on feeling better about my choices and my wants. Actually being who I want to be and enjoying whoever I am in the moment.

In any event, it takes time and patience to get what you want and be who you want. But, you also have to remember that you are who you are right now, and you have to start where you are. Be yourself, be happy in who you are and feel your happiness and joy in all things. Just a matter of practice and intention. It is worth the effort so far, and I am enjoying the process as well!