Apathy

So why is it that I am less caring about what is happening outside of my sphere of influence than I was a month ago? Have I changed that much? Or have I come to realize that I can't actually influence anything beyond a certain point?

I am feeling pretty apathetic to the whole world of politics and society as a whole. I think mainly it has to do with not feeling a part of it any longer. Realizing that I have been enlightened and that I choose not to get involved.

Sure, things could be better, and I dream of the day that things will be better than they are now. But do I really want to spend the effort to actually help achieve those goals? Or should I spend my time working on my community and the people I care about and forget the rest until they get their act together?

That could be a long wait!

I suppose I should just lead by example. Choose to not participate for the "greater good" but the betterment of my own and myself. If enough people can do that for their own little community, then things will have to get better, right?

Or am I so naive to believe that people will do the right thing when given the opportunity? Or are people so ignorant that they won't even try because it is too "hard" or they are too "lazy".

Anyway, I guess I don't really care what they do after all. It gives me no pleasure to see people suffer but I would have to sacrifice a lot to ease their suffering when the root of the problems in this world will just keep the boot to them after I have expended all my energy. Fix the root of the problem and things will get better. Except of course that the root of the problem is so totally entrenched in our current society that it will take a huge upheaval to change the way things are.

Ah well, I will fight the good fight, but for only those who I care about, until something changes.