My Blog

So I have been reading recently in my friends' blogs about why they blog, what they tend to blog about and the repercussions that may happen by writing in their blog.

You know what I blog about? Me either. heh

Seriously, I blog because it is a release. If I have some issue on my mind, I write about it. Whether it is about community or society or personal issues or poetry or whatever.

Really, all my blog is is a diary (as Chase put it). When I first started blogging oh those many months ago (what 6 weeks or so now?) I was so wanting to have an audience. I wanted people to hear what I had to say and to comment on it. Perhaps start a discussion.

But as I continued to write, and I tend to write every day if possible, it has becoming more and more a thought dump of what I am feeling at the time I write. It is a way for me to express myself in a semi-anonymous way. If people I know read my blog, great! If not, then oh well. :) It is addictive, after all, writing down my thoughts and perhaps hearing feedback.

So, in essence, I get a blogasm when I write in my blog. Not because of what feedback I get but that I am actually able to express myself.

I tend to be a shy person in person and until I get to know you, and like you, I don't express my humor or my weird quirky view of the world, let alone anything in-depth about politics and community and all that.

Needless to say, I am just gonna blog til I don't want to any more, regardless of the consequences. Why? Because they are only consequences if I let them be. If people can't or don't want to understand me for who I am, or care about my opinions, then so be it. They can fuck off! :)

Why spend my time and effort worrying about what people are going to think of me when what is really important is that I am truly myself and not some false image I want to portray to people. So much less effort on my part and if the consequences are that you don't like me speaking my truth then you are the one not ready to hear it.

Take me as I am, otherwise I am nothing.